somethings never change

This past week Brennan had his dreaded 1 year old appointment.  For those of you with kids you can relate to what I am talking about, 4 shots and blood all in a 10 minute span.  As I left to go the appointment my husband apologized for having to work and miss the appointment.  I said it and truly meant it when I told him it was no big deal.  Hey, this is my third kid, been there done that , no problem.!!  Well as I left the doctors appointment it was no different than the the other two.  I was dripping in sweat, my anxiety level was higher than any police call I have been on and I just wanted to grab Brennan and make it all better.  I left that appointment like a first time mom.  I was later talking to my best friend , whose daughter will be going in for the dread appointment in a week.   I laughed at how somethings never change, no matter how many times you do it, it just does not get any easier.  Sometimes they even get worse.  I than told a horror story how how I had straddle my seven year old son like he was a criminal trying to flee the scene.  As he was yelling "don't let them do this to me mom"  As the nurse was trying to take his blood.  Let me tell you I came home and ate a whole bag of gummy worms after that...Yes the whole bag ...and Yes it did make me feel better.  I was I was laying in bed last night for some unknown reason I was thinking about blogging about the dreaded 1yr old appointment and it struck me and scared me  because I  realized it is only going to get worse.  Right now we are talking about shots and blood work but as they get older it will be life's disappointments I will need to protect them from.  It will be a mean kid on the playground, some girl or boy breaking their heart,  not making the team or not getting to play,  or God forbid something more serious.  Right now I can justify the pain  caused to this sweet little face because it is good for them

How will I be able to handle  that that intense feeling to protect them from something that is not good for them but may be part of  a life lesson that will make them into a better adult because it may teach them about hard work, sympathy, empathy and what true love is.  But lessons are not easy and sometimes they hurt.  And I never want to see them hurt .  So right now I am going to hug them, kiss them, build their self esteem up and prepare them for life and let them know no matter what happens I will always be there in there corner to help with the pain.  So for now I am going to be thankful for those shots because that kind of pain I know how to deal with.