Funny as it is to believe as much as I begged ,pleaded and maybe even shed a few tears to have a 3rd child, when I found out I was pregnant something unexpected happened, I panicked. Actually I went into a full blown panic attack. I know it sounds crazy, till this day I still can’t explain it. It was something I wanted so bad, I felt terrible for feeling scared of having another baby again. I am thankful for my close friends that calmed me down during several sobbing phone calls. Thanks for not calling me crazy , even know I am sure you thought it. I guess as much as I wanted another baby there was the stress of so many unknowns. How will this change the dynamics of what I know as our family, will this put too much stress on my marriage, will it be possible to work full time and raise 3 children, the worries were many. If I was not stressed enough, when I told Cody he cried. Not the reaction I was expecting. However till this day he denies crying and tells me all the time he prayed for Brennan and that is how we got another baby. He can keep thinking that as long as he wants!!! In the mist of this stress the one thought that calmed me down was thinking maybe I would have another girl and Hailey would have a sister. I have two wonderful sisters and can’t imagine not having them. I wanted Hailey to have that. So I kept thinking and hoping I was having another girl and I was at peace with being pregnant again. For those of you that do not know we did not find out the sex of Cody or Hailey before they were born. However having one of each I decide with this baby to find out the sex so I could get rid of stuff I did not need to hang on to. SO I could “de-clutter”. Can hear my hubby laughing at that word “de-clutter” He does not think that is ever possible for me to do. So we decide to find out during that ultrasound if we were having a little Brennan or a Mackenzie. Well much to my surprise my little baby sister was now a little brother. After seeing that beautiful baby boy growing inside of me I no longer feared what was to come. I was immediately in awe of this gift from God . I could not wait to for what was to come and the unknown chaos that would soon be my new normal . However part of me grieved a little for the little sister I had created in my mind for Hailey. Maybe it was because I never had a brother, I guess I did not get that whole dynamic of a brother/sister relationship. All I knew about having brothers was I never knew anything about football,Lego's and star wars because there were no brothers in our house. I also thought it would be cool to have a big brother to meet all his hot friends and enlarge my dating pool!!! What else would a brother be good for. I wanted that sister for Hailey so bad. Hailey also cried when we told her we were having a boy. She kept saying I wanted a sister. However as Hailey , Cody and Brennan have grown I have realized there was nothing to grieve. The dynamic of their relationships has awed me on more occasions than I can count. In typically big brother form Cody is Hailey’s protector. As much as those two fight someday. Cody is the first one to take care of Hailey and comfort her. As you know night times at our house to say it nicely is crazy when I am not there. When I stop home for my dinner break, about half the time Hailey melts down completely when I have to leave. As much as I hate to see her like that, it amazes me when I have to go it is her “CO-CO” she wants. That is her nickname for Cody, She only calls him that when she needs him. Before I leave she will say “I need Co-Co to sit by me on the couch and watch a movie with me” As much as Cody likes to torture his little sister he never refuse to sit by her when she is upset. He always takes care of her and calms her down as much as she can be. I am so proud of my Cody boy.
He also does things for Hailey just because they are important to her. This month Hailey had a princess play date at our house with all her princess friends. He helped out and organized a game of pillow musical chairs for all her friends. He happily chased all the princess around the back yard in Princess Tag. He genuinely wanted her princess party to be fun because he knew how excited she was to have it. I have no doubt in my mind he will always be there making sure she is OK and hopefully kicking any boys butt that causes her tears!.
It’s funny cause up until about a year and half ago, they would sleep together every night. I know Cody will never admit it but he need her there as much as she wanted to sleep with him. I have to admit it broke my heart a little bit the day that he said he wanted his room to be his own and Hailey needed to sleep in her own bed. Don’t worry she has found a little brother to share a bed with and boy does that little brother love his big sis.
He thinks she is the funniest thing around. He is the only one that enjoys Hailey nonstop chatter. He smiles every time she walks into the room. He loves watching her dance shows as she skips and turns around the living room. One of his favorite show is Jake and the Never land pirates because it is her favorite show. Hailey absolutely adores Brennan, sometimes a little too much. On numerous occasion she squeezes his little chubby arms and tells him how much she loves him. The only problem is she squeezes him a little too hard and has left a few bruises! We are still working on that. I know the relationship between them will continue to grow as Brennan gets older. I know there will be a time when Hailey wishes she could trade her two brother for two sister who she can swap clothes with or complain about friends and boyfriends to but I think those days will be few and far between due to the fact she has two brothers that she adores and that adore her back.
He also does things for Hailey just because they are important to her. This month Hailey had a princess play date at our house with all her princess friends. He helped out and organized a game of pillow musical chairs for all her friends. He happily chased all the princess around the back yard in Princess Tag. He genuinely wanted her princess party to be fun because he knew how excited she was to have it. I have no doubt in my mind he will always be there making sure she is OK and hopefully kicking any boys butt that causes her tears!.
It’s funny cause up until about a year and half ago, they would sleep together every night. I know Cody will never admit it but he need her there as much as she wanted to sleep with him. I have to admit it broke my heart a little bit the day that he said he wanted his room to be his own and Hailey needed to sleep in her own bed. Don’t worry she has found a little brother to share a bed with and boy does that little brother love his big sis.
He thinks she is the funniest thing around. He is the only one that enjoys Hailey nonstop chatter. He smiles every time she walks into the room. He loves watching her dance shows as she skips and turns around the living room. One of his favorite show is Jake and the Never land pirates because it is her favorite show. Hailey absolutely adores Brennan, sometimes a little too much. On numerous occasion she squeezes his little chubby arms and tells him how much she loves him. The only problem is she squeezes him a little too hard and has left a few bruises! We are still working on that. I know the relationship between them will continue to grow as Brennan gets older. I know there will be a time when Hailey wishes she could trade her two brother for two sister who she can swap clothes with or complain about friends and boyfriends to but I think those days will be few and far between due to the fact she has two brothers that she adores and that adore her back.
