Brotherly love

Funny as it is to believe as much as I begged ,pleaded and  maybe even shed a few tears to have a 3^rd child, when I found out I was pregnant something unexpected happened,  I panicked.   Actually I went into a full blown panic attack.  I know it sounds crazy, till this day I still can’t explain it.  It was something I wanted so bad, I felt terrible for feeling scared of having another baby again.  I am thankful for my close friends that calmed me down during several sobbing phone calls.   Thanks for not calling me crazy , even know I am sure you thought it.  I guess as much as I wanted another baby there was the stress of so many unknowns.  How will this change the dynamics of what I know as our family, will this put too much stress on my marriage, will it be possible to work full time and raise 3 children, the worries were many.   If I was not stressed enough, when I told Cody he cried.  Not the reaction I was expecting.  However till this day he denies crying and tells me all the time he prayed for Brennan and that is how we got another baby.  He can keep thinking that as long as he wants!!!    In the mist of this stress the one thought that calmed me down was thinking  maybe I would have another girl and Hailey would  have a sister.  I have two wonderful sisters and can’t imagine not having them.  I wanted Hailey to have that.  So I kept thinking and  hoping I was having another girl  and I was at peace with being pregnant again.  For those of you that do not know we did not find out the sex of  Cody or Hailey before they were born.   However having one of each I decide with this baby to find out the sex so I could get rid of stuff I did not need to hang on to.  SO I could “de-clutter”.   Can hear my hubby laughing at that word “de-clutter”  He does not think that is ever possible for me to do.  So we decide to find out during that ultrasound if we were having a little Brennan or a Mackenzie.    Well much to my surprise my little baby sister was now a little brother.    After seeing that beautiful baby boy growing inside of me I no longer feared what was to come.  I was immediately in awe of this gift from God .  I could not wait to for what was  to come and the unknown chaos that would soon be my new normal .    However part of me grieved a little for the little sister I had created in my mind for Hailey.   Maybe it was because I never had a brother, I guess I did not get that whole dynamic of a brother/sister  relationship.  All I knew about having brothers was I never knew anything about football,Lego's and star wars because there were no brothers in our house. I also thought it would be cool to have a big brother to meet all his hot friends and enlarge my dating pool!!!  What else would a brother be good for.  I wanted that sister for Hailey so bad.  Hailey also cried when we told her we were having a boy.  She kept saying I wanted a sister.    However as Hailey , Cody and Brennan have grown I have realized there was nothing to grieve.  The dynamic of their relationships has  awed me on more occasions than I can count.  In typically big brother form Cody is Hailey’s protector.  As much as those two fight someday.  Cody is the first one to take care of Hailey and comfort her.  As  you know  night times at our house to say it nicely is crazy when I am not there.  When I stop home  for my dinner break, about half the time Hailey melts down completely when I have to leave.   As much as I hate to see her like that, it amazes me when I have to go it is her “CO-CO” she wants.  That is her nickname for Cody,  She only calls him that when she needs him.  Before I leave she will say “I need Co-Co to sit by me on the couch and watch a movie with me”  As much as Cody likes to torture his little sister he never refuse to sit by her when she is upset.  He always takes care of her and calms her down as much as she can be.  I am so proud of my Cody boy.

 He also does things for Hailey just because they are important to her.  This month Hailey had a princess play date at our house with all her princess friends.   He helped out and organized a game of pillow musical chairs for all her friends.  He happily chased all the princess around the back yard in Princess Tag.  He genuinely wanted her princess party to be fun because he knew how excited she was to have it.   I have no doubt in my mind he will always be there making sure she is OK and hopefully kicking any boys butt that causes her tears!.

  It’s funny cause up until about a year and half ago, they would sleep together every night.  I know Cody will  never admit it but he need her there as much as she wanted to sleep with him.  I have to admit it broke my heart a little bit the day that he said he wanted his room to be his own and Hailey needed to sleep in her own bed.  Don’t worry she has found a little brother to share a bed with and boy does that little brother love his big sis.

 He thinks she is the funniest thing around.  He is the only one that enjoys Hailey nonstop chatter.  He smiles every time she walks into the room.  He loves watching her dance shows as she skips and turns around the living room.  One of his favorite show is Jake and the Never land pirates because it is her favorite show.  Hailey absolutely adores Brennan, sometimes a little too much.  On numerous occasion she squeezes his little chubby arms and tells him how much she loves him.  The only problem is she squeezes him a little too hard and  has left a few bruises!    We are still working on that.   I know the relationship between them will continue to grow as Brennan gets older.   I know there will be a time when Hailey wishes she could trade her two brother for two sister who she can swap clothes with or complain about  friends and boyfriends to but  I think those days will be few and far between due to the fact she has two brothers that she adores and that adore her back. 

FlashBack Friday:Vegas

It has been  well over a year since we have been to our favorite vacation destination.  In fact it has been 18 months but who is counting!!!! My husband that is who.   We try to go to Vegas once a year for 3 days just to get away.  However after having each new baby, we have to wait approx 2 years before we can get away again due to the fact my mom's back is not up to watching and carrying a baby that much and second I can't get my crazy kids weaned before than.  However I am really starting to feel that itch to get away for a few days and  have some alone time with Steve , sleep 8 straight hours and  without having a little person in the middle and maybe even have a uninterrupted meal and read a book by the pool.  Wow sounds like Heaven

So  Since it will probably be a another 6 months before we go, I have been really thinking about getting away.  So this weeks flashback Friday is a trip of Vegas from the  past  I think this was in 2009.  I don't have many pictures of our  Vegas Vacation since  we are usually to busy at the casino for pictures but here is a few from the pool and the Hotel at Paris in Vegas.  Wow I really want to go.  The last picture is of Me with carrot top.  When we were out to dinner one night during this trip and I may have had a few to many cocktails!!  We ran in to Carrot top and I proceeded to drunk call everyone I know telling them we saw carrot top.  Why I was so impressed with carrot top, I am not sure but I guess being away from the kids and a few Malibu's and diets makes me giddy.  A good friend had this picture waiting for me when I got back from vacation.   Anyone up for a trip to Vegas I am going to start planning one for June 2012, our 10 year anniversary.  Let me know Have a great week!!!!

FLASHBACK FRIDAYS; Best Buddies

It is flashback friday again, WOW where does the weeks go.  While it seems like the days are flying by, somethings never change.  Hailey and Brennan are still giving me or should I say Steve  major problems the nights I work 2nd shift.  I try to tell Hailey how lucky she is that mom only works 2nd shift two nights a week  and when Cody was little before she was born Mom worked 5 nights a week on second shift.  She is amazed that Cody had to sleep at our good friends 2 nights a week.  She loves hearing stories of how I had to wake him up and bring him home at 10:15pm and what songs we listen to on the way home to our house to help him stay sleeping .  We were so lucky and our still lucky to have great friends and family taking care of our children while we work.  Not sure what we would do with out great friends and family who help us out.  Sure makes it easier to go to work knowing your kids are well loved and taken care of.  This weeks flashback friday is of Cody and Hunter.  Cody went to Hunter's house while I worked back than.  Rachel watched cody from 14 week till Hailey was born.    To this day Cody and Hunter are great friends.  I was lucky that Hunter's mom  would take photo's while I was working and send them to me.  These two were best buds from the start.  Have a great week.  P.S I promise to finally update the blog this week.  I

FlashBack Friday,

I did not get a chance to blog this week I was enjoying my summer days off with the kid.  We went to the drive in, we went to the beach and we did the annual doll buggy parade and and after party .  It felt like the perfect summer week.    The weather could have cooperated a little bit more yesterday for our after party but the kids still had fun.    This week's flashback pictures are from the doll buggy parade when Cody was about 18 months. Can you tell how much time I had back than, check out my wagon  Funny I thought I was busy than..  You will also notice a picture of all the kids on my grandma's porch.  We take that same picture every year of all the kids that go to the parade. Its amazing looking at the picture now and seeing how everyone has grown    Hope you have a good week

Flashback Fridays

When I first started flashback Fridays, I mentioned I was going to put pictures not only of my kids but also of Steve and I.  So my kids would get some information about not only about thing in their past but important things in our past. So this weeks flashback friday is from this exact  week in  2004.  This week in 2004  I was promoted from a Patrol Officer to an  Investigator .   Cody was  6 months old at this time .  While I had only been on the force for about 6 years after having Cody I was looking forward to the promotion.     I knew this promation would be not oly good for my career but good for my family.   While it  is always scary to try something new and move out of your comfort zone.  I knew this promotion would be best for my family life.  I felt it was less risky than patrol which is important once you have a child and you become a mom .  Once you become someone’s mom  things change and any risk you can minimize  you do .  This job also makes it easier for me to stop home for dinners or anything else that comes up making for a more "normal' family life.    Also being a Investigator  also gives me the freedom to work half the week on 2^nd shift and the other half on day shift.  Which sometimes can be tiring for me, but again works best for the kids because it minimizes the time we need daycare.  When I took the promotion back in June of 2004 I knew it  was the best thing I could have do for my family  but I never knew how much I would enjoy the job .     So My flashback photos are from my promotional ceremony this week in 2004.

Milestones

It’s Funny since Cody was my first born I got the first time mom excitement of watching him hit  all the mile stones for the first time ever.  First Smiles, First laughs,  First rolls, First walk, and so on.  Watching each of the milestones and watching him grow I could not help but beam with pride and feel a sense of  awe that a first time mom feels.  Each milestone  more special than the next,  I photograph everyone of them  in my memory.   Being a seasoned veteran mom of three now, I thought I had reached all the momentous first and  I was prepared for them all.  However while laying in bed last night  my 7 ½ first born came bouncing out of his bed, so excited that he had pulled out his first tooth.  He had been waiting this whole school year to lose his first tooth.   He was so disappointed he did not lose his first  tooth in kindergarten or first grade at school because they do something special for you when you do.    He also did not want to be the only 2^nd grader that had not lost his first tooth.  My poor Cody did not get his first tooth until 13 months, I remember wondering if he was ever going to get that first tooth.    We had a running joke that his 9month younger cousin Connor was going to get his first tooth first.  Cody did  get his first.  However , I remember worrying he was never going to get them.  I have several missing adult teeth, I started to wondered if he was missing teeth like me.  But around 13 months that first and second bottom teeth finally made their way up  to that toothless grin. 

 I must admit I was a little worried that his first tooth might fall out late due to the fact it came in so slow.  Cody kept telling me his tooth was loose, but I must admit I did not know it was that loose.  For some reason, wiggly teeth give me the willies.   I must admit I never wiggled  it and saw how loose it was.   However I was ready for that first tooth to fall out. I had bought a few small gifts and put them away for the big moment.  While I was prepared on the tooth Fairy end, nothing prepared this seasoned veteran for the feeling I would get from this milestone.  While watching that toothless grin again, I felt a sudden pain of sadness.  That tooth was more than a token for the tooth fairy.  It represent a small piece of Cody’s childhood and it was a direct symbol of something bigger.  Little by little, piece by piece or tooth by tooth.  My first born baby is no longer my baby.  I was really taken back by how sad this made me feel. There Cody stood in front of me so proud and all I wanted to do was hug him and stop time.  I gave him the biggest hug and told him how proud I was of him and swallowed that lump in my throat and wiped that tear in my eye.   Again I am remind how fast time goes by and how fast our babies grow up.    It’s funny as much as I complain about being needed all the time or my lack of sleep I am not ready for my Cody, Hailey or Brennan to grow up.  I know I can’t stop time , but here is another small reminder to slow down and enjoying every minute of it.  Craziness and all.  I love every bit of it and I love those kids more than I could ever put in to words 

Father's Day

Growing up I was often was the most “vocal’ of the  3 kids.    When I refer to  vocal I don’t mean I was lucky enough to have lead in the school musical  more like I could not keep my thoughts to myself.    I have often been called ‘opinionated’ by those who are close to me .  I however like to refer to my “upfront” nature as a occupational hazard of my career choice.  I am in a career where I need to be  in charge  and dominate the situation.  While this trait has served me well in my career path, it often got me into lots trouble in my home life growing up.   You might say me and my Dad may have got in to more disagreement than I can even attempt to count  over what I would call stating my side of the story .  My dad saw it as something totally different.     I hate to admit  it  but this  may have even lead to me be chased around the kitchen table on  numerous occasion.  Good thing I was faster than my dad.  It is funny growing up I could never see it cause I was too stubborn to look outside of the situation and to focused on “being right” .  However I see it now as clear as day  that I am my Fathers daughter.  We  definitely  come from the same mold and unfortunately  that lead us   to a few power struggles growing up.   However now as a Adult I can look at the situation and laugh.  I also realize there is no one else that I would like to resemble other than my Dad.  I owe some of my best traits to my father. 

 I get my sunny disposition from my Dad.  I don’t care how bad the situation is my Dad is always happy.  I have never seen my dad without a smile on his face.  My dad has never gets the blues, to him all blue is and ever will be is a color.   Very rarely does my dad get crabby or is in a bad mood.  Take for example this past winter he was lost his job at Chrysler due to the factory closing.  If it was not bad enough he was out of a job he ended up blowing his knee out and was laid up till about March healing.  However during that whole time, I never once caught my Dad one time feeling sorry for himself or angry at the situation.  He just sat up in the upstairs bedroom with his leg up on the ottoman with  a smile on his face playing games  with Hailey and Cody and rocking Brennan to sleep.

Speaking of sleeping I also get my ability to sleep so easily from my dad.  I wish my children would have inherited that trait but no such luck.  I remember growing up and my dad would come home from a long day at work and he would lay on the floor and we would be crawling all over him and he would be able to take a 20 min power nap in all that chaos .  My dad has also been known to take a few power naps while working 3^rd shift .    My dad can sleep anywhere and never has a problem falling asleep.   I know some of you might not get being able to sleep anytime or anywhere as a high on the great trait list but to a mother who gets woken up a average of  4 times a night and has to hop from one child’s bed to the next, the ability of being able to wake up and get back to sleep quickly is the difference between being functional the next day or not.

I also get my love of kids from my Dad.  Like my Dad I think the more kids the better.  Those of you who ever has been at a Schiro family party will know what I am talking about.  It you ever can’t find my dad just look for the large group of kids cause he always in the middle of it.  My Dad is always surround by a group of kids running  a heads or tails game, or a trivia game about the Schiro Family.  All kids love my dad, because he makes them feel special and they  love playing his games .  Some of you don’t know this but my  Dad has been a mentor for a number of at risk kids while he worked at Chrysler.  My Dad  took time out of  his day once a week to make these kids feel special .  He also made up different games to make learning fun and improve the kid's grades.  All the teachers love my Dad because they can see a dramatic change he has made  in the children that he has mentored.  

I also get my creative side from my Dad. Some people in our family like to say we are full of ‘bullshit”  But I would argue we like to tell a good story.   For those of you that don’t know my Dad is the best pretend player around.  He is the only person I know that can play pretend games with Hailey for 8hrs straight and never get annoyed.  He loves to tell stories.  One of his all time favorites is the story of the bear that ripped of his belly button.    I know there are a lot of believers of that story out there.(sorry if I just gave the truth away)  I know he has one little blond hair beauty that believes that all the dolls at grandpa’s house runway because they love playing hide and seek and only runaway when they know Hailey  is coming over so she can find them.

                However One trait I don’t have yet but hope I am lucky enough to pick up is to be seen as a Hero.  That is how my children see my dad.  I hope my grand kids will look at me with the same  awe my kids look at my Dad with.   They love him to pieces and he is the center of the world.  They both jump at the chance to sleep over and grandpa’s house.  I am sure Brennan will soon  be jumping at the chance to spend the night, however Grandpa says he can’t do that until we can get Brennan not so attached to me all night. HMMM will that ever happen  My kids think there is nothing that is broken that Grandpa Mike can’t fix.   Just last week Steve was putting the trampoline together with the kids and he was having problems.  So Hailey went inside the house without Steve not knowing and called my Dad and left a message for my dad because he was not home.  The message she left was “grandpa come over my Dad needs help.”  Of course my Dad called back right away to see what Steve needed help with.  However when there was no answer he rushed right over to make sure Steve was OK.  Steve was OK and grandpa and Dad were able to get the trampoline together.   Grandpa saved the day again..   My Children have learned so much from my dad.  Cody knows how to use all his tools from his tool chest because of my dad.        Both of my kids have a love of card games and gambling because of my Dad.  Cody know his number and addition because of a magic card trick, my dad has taught him.  Of course we can’t forgot one of the most important thing my Dad has taught my kids and any one that knows him, the lyric’s to the good ole Mountain Dew song.   

          Most importantly Cody, Hailey and Brennan have learned from my Dad what real love it and what it means to be part of family that is filled with love,   I hope my Dad knows how much he means to them.    Dad I also want  you to know how lucky I am to have you as a Dad and I take it as the utter most compliment when someone says you are just like you dad.  So Happy father’s Day to the best Father, Grandfather around

Here is he telling Stories to Hailey and Dylan

Brennan hearing the Mountain Dew song for the first time ever

This is my all time Favorite picture of Cody and My dad, those two are definitely two peas in a pod

Love ya Dad